Sigh.. there feeling of not wanting to go to school was the ultimate. I tried to convince myself that my bestfriends are going to be there. But the thought of them never really there for me just add to another reason why i don;t want to go to school.
The thing is.. i can’t find anyone to really talk to…. i just couldn’t. Both my bestfriends keep hurting me and and they didn’t realise that. The pain and the pressure that they gave me was unexplainable. I want to talk to one of my bestfriend but all i will end up with him is an arguement between both of us. My other bestfriend, i could not talk to him… because.. i love my bestfriend soo much that….. i can’t explain it. I just couldn’t. I don’t know what to do.. What can i do?
Should i talk to my teacher about this? But will it do any good? The pain is too much and i can’t stand it anymore. I don’t want to talk about it with my parents, it will just makes things even more worst.
Is this about friendship? Is this about love? i don’t know what this is anymore.
Endless tears..
Tonight…..i want to end it all.. but i just don’t have the courage to do so..
I really need one of my bestfriends tonight… but thats not gonna happen.. who am i to them.. I’m just another broken pieces of burden in their lives..
