Hi guys, I missed one day of posting so I guess I have to make up for it.
I lost someone dear to me recently. She is somewhat close to me because I use to visit her during Hari Raya. I guess I kinda took her for granted because her presence was almost like a stranger to me than part of whats suppose to be a big family. That faithful day, 06/07/08, my mom woke me up and told me that She was gone. My mom was mad because I unplugged the phone cable the night before and that my cousins could not reach us to tell us about the news. So I guess its my fault then. I know i tend to ruin everything. I hope that doesn’t affect my bestfriends (because if it does then I’ll just walk away from their lives). Anyway, when I was at my cousin’s house, I was so sad and maybe too sad to see that all my cousins were crying and all. I can’t stand seeing other people sad and decided to leave.
Its weird, one day your here and who knows the next day you’re gone. That feeling always gets into me because what if tomorrow is ‘The’ day. What if it ends tomorrow? What will happen to the people that i cared and loved? Everytime i think about it, i cried. I know its kinda weird for a guy to cry but this one is out of the question. Dying means leaving whats precious to you and to everyone.
I was lost and confused on that day that I kept running away from the outside world and even my bestfriend. (Sorry Hafiz~) I was so vulnerable to almost anything.
My night was terrible. My air conditioner was making this irritating sound till morning and well it was spraying water all over the floor and on my radio set. Luckily it didn’t get my laptop wet.
I woke up really really early today! and decided to go to school early. (around 6.15am or so) The school looked weird and scary because it feels like I am in an alternate world with zombies and all. School was okay because i spent most of my time with my bestfriend!! Fun Fun Fun. But, Nafii was absent today so i missed his lameness. (Why Nafii!! Why!!??)
My afternoon was interesting because Math afternoon class got canceled and well more time with buddy! Again fun fun fun. Haha. I like spending time with Hafiz and Hafyz. Both Hafizes are fun people to hang out with.
Anyway, i got this from a book about Late Pricess Diana.
“I Would be True” – 1906, by Harold Arnold Walter
I would be true for there are those who trust me,
I would be pure for there are those who cared,
I would be strong for there is much to suffer,
I would be brave for there is much to dare,
I would be friend of all, the foe and the friendless,
I would be giving and forget the gift,
I would be humble for I know my weakness,
I would look up, and laugh and love and live!
It was so beautiful! Anyway, thats it for tonight I guess. I know it is going to be one hell of a week because of this whole incident. Emo here i come!
